It has been a year since my sweet husband, Everett Bagby passed from lung cancer. The one year anniversary was actually June 18 but i am just now thinking of sharing some thoughts on the matter. I have handled things well for the most part. I had on very emotional break down while at work and haven't cried that hard before or since. Why i don't know but that is ok too.

My friends have been helping me to learn to live anew and that is working out nicely. Just today, one of my friends assisted me in putting on some mascara for the first time in at least 35 years. That picture was posted on Facebook and i sure got a lot of compliments. Makes me smile too. Here is my new look. I just might start wearing a little mascara when working. it sure made me feel prettier.
May God bless and keep you.
Robbie

Cricket and moving on

Spring has sprung! I am so enjoying this spring more than most others. I normally don't like hot weather but somehow i think this will be different. I haven't had a horse in almost 3 years now but this past saturday, March 17, 2012 Cricket was delivered to me. Cricket is an appaloosa gelding and is 12 years old. He was bred, raised, trained and shown by a dear friend whom gave him to me. She tells me he is my horse but her baby. I can certainly understand that!
Tonight, March 19, Cricket seems to have finally settled in and is learning his routine. This in itself makes me happy.
The dogs are running the fence barking less at him for now. I will have to work with them some to feel comfortable leaving Cricket out of his stall while i am gone from my house. Silly dogs but they think they are protecting their mom and their home.
While sometimes i do have sad moments still, it is better now and i am finally happy again after my dear husband's death last summer. Yesterday was the 9 month anniversary of Everett's death. I just realized it tonight.
I am learning to live a new life and am doing quite well.

NOW to find a horse trailer and get out and riding with others.
NOTE: this picture is from the barn he came from, not here at home now but just watch for more posts to come soon.

On tuesday's I go to a  grief support group. Last night our speaker told us how healing it was for him to journal. While i have given this serious conderation, i am more prone to blogging here online.
On 2-21-2012, it was a year since I took Everett to the doctor and ultimately to the hospital for his illness. As most know that know me well, he was diagnosed with stage 4 lung cancer on March 3, 2011.
He passed away on June 18, 2011 just shy of 4 months after his first hospital admission.
He made the decision to have his body donated to UAB instead of having a funeral.
Sometime in the coming 4 months, his remains will be sent back to me.
I know God gives me comfort in the hardest of times.
Love your friends and family and make sure they know how you feel about them. One day, you will be faced with either wishing you had said or done more or you will be thankful for the relationship you had.
May God bless and keep you.

RIP precious Everett!

Sometimes i foster for all breed rescues. Not long ago, i took in a foster dachshund/beagle mix. She is 2 years old and is just precious. She is and active girl but will lay down and snooze too. She is housebroke. I do have a doggie door but she does seem to know to let you know she has to go out if the doggie door is closed. We are learning each other. Her name is Camry. She was rescued from a shelter after her person/family dumped her there. I have no idea why she was dumped but i am sure it was for no good reason at all. If anyone is interested in her, they can contact me thru my blog here. I will then direct them to the rescue that is responsible for her.

just thinking

During the past 7 months, i have learned exactly who my friends are. Actually i knew who most were but have learned that an old friend is one of the best. I am leaving out names here to protect feelings and identity.
I had an awesome day today and accomplished a lot.
I did learn something from the Lord. I know he is my redeemer and i am solely reliable on Him and none other. I can't do anything alone. I can only do all WITH HIM.
I do sort of feel defeated in a task i have tried to accomplish that past 6-8 weeks. However while the door isn't closed on that task, i don't feel in my heart that it will come to fruition. But whatever God's will for my life is, i am happy with it because He knows best.
"Thank you Father for the love you have not only for me but for those that love you and follow you. You have our best interest at heart and only want the best for us. Thank you for forgiveness, grace, and mercy. You have blessed me beyond belief. I am humbled. In Jesus name, Amen."

My daughter does some awesome work painting nails. She played with some of my bassets nails painting them. Here is what she did. Here is Amelia and Daisy.

I am getting out more now and doing things. I went to BHRG's basset bash in November and had a good time. 

I am spending more time in God's word and am enjoying it more and more. Why shouldn't i? God is my comforter and provider. I am thankful for his grace, mercy and love. 

I have recently put in a doggie door into the back of my house so my hounds can come and go especially at night so i can sleep better without interruption in having to get up and let them in and out. What a blessing a doggie door is. Whoever created this one is a genus in my opinion. 

I am getting curtains put up in the house and it is looking a lot more cozy around here now. I also found a box of pictures, prints and paintings and have gotten most of them put up now. I didn't have any pictures hung in my bedroom so most of these are now up in there. Sure makes the house a lot more homey with pictures and curtains up.